Daily Dose of Mama: Off Duty Mama

Friday, October 15, 2010

Off Duty Mama

I've been away on business for the last few days. When I haven't been talking about Appa and Little Bug, I've been thinking about them, and when I haven't been thinking about them, I'll suddenly find ways to start thinking about them again.

In short, I've missed my boys.

However

I just got done with fancy dinner where I drank wine and ate silly looking appetizers and didn't see a single beverage with a straw. I immediately went back to my room and took an hour long shower without anyone pounding on the door while screaming "baffffffff!" I hummed and sat on the floor of the tub and let the water spray over my body.

For an hour. Without feeling guilt.

My hotel room, even after a couple days, is still clean and tidy. I've barely turned on the TV, opting instead to read in my king sized bed.

And the sleep

OH, the sleep!

Granted, I have been working like 15 hour days, but the few precious hours in the evening more than make up for the punishing daylight hours. I've thoroughly enjoyed taking care of just me for a couple days.

Yet, as much as I love having six super soft pillows all to myself, I've purposely left a little toy train in my purse the entire time, as a little reminder of who I really am.

A mama...who just happens to be off duty for one more night.

7 comments:

KristenOctober 15, 2010 at 11:30 PM
Enjoy your last 6-pillow night!
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everythingismeowsomeOctober 16, 2010 at 7:01 AM
sounds heavenly. And yet, I know that as much as you are enjoying it, you will also be so ready to be home and back to being on duty again right when it is over!
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ChristineOctober 16, 2010 at 4:51 PM
That does sound like a nice little getaway, even if you are working hard! Enjoy your last night and the moment when you see your boys again. :)
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AmyOctober 16, 2010 at 10:27 PM
Mmm, this sounds nice. Enjoy. :)
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AnonymousOctober 17, 2010 at 8:12 AM
Sounds wonderful! I love that you kept a little toy train in your purse. :)
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JoJoOctober 18, 2010 at 6:36 AM
Glad you can enjoy it!
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Christine @ 12,450miles October 18, 2010 at 9:08 AM
I'm completely relishing this post... I will not lie, I'm a little jealous. Even of the work part. Maybe that means I'm crazy, but I think it's important to remember who you were pre-child as well, and this sounds like it did just that!
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I'm a 32-year-old everyday mama. My husband (Appa) and I adopted our first son Little Bug (at 10 months old) from Korea in September 2008. We adopted our second son, Little Bro, from Korea in April 2011 at age 21 months. We adopted our third son,Little Moon, at age 3 in November 2013. I've wanted to be a mama for a long time, but I'm still trying to figure out the reality of it all and take time to enjoy the delicate beauty of the highs and the lows.

I worked full time as an editor, which I loved; but I made the bittersweet decision to stay home with my children after Little Bro came home. I'm now clumsily finding my footing in a new world of housekeeping, menu planning, budgeting, cooking, cleaning, and rainy-day activities, as well as navigating the world of IEPs, parent advocacy, and special needs education (spoiler: I suck at house work). My husband is hot and smart and quiet and loyal, and I think (know) my sons are the cutest, happiest little boys in the world.

I also struggle at times with mild depression, anxiety, post-adoption depression, my husband's constant absence due to his stressful and super time-consuming job, the challenges of helping my older son with his sometimes exhausting special needs, and our transition to a family of three little boys with just 19 and 14 months between them. I worry way too much about what people think of me, hate talking on the phone, and I am trying to trust myself more.

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