Daily Dose of Mama: Cuddle Down

Monday, June 21, 2010

Cuddle Down

I love my baby, yes I do. But he was a freaking monster tonight.

Granted, he is getting over being sick and had a really bad night last night and back-to-back therapy sessions today, so he had a right to be fed up, but by the time we dialed up Appa for our nightly video chat, I was about ready to lock myself in a padded room. When we signed off, I had a moment of panic and actually whined out loud "don't leave me alone with him......."

With an hour until bedtime looming in front of us (or rather, looming in front of me since Little Bug's head was spinning too much for him to notice anything looming), I knew that the night could end one of two ways: either we love on each other or we don't.

I picked door A, and we cuddled in to watch one episode of Classical Baby and his latest favorite music video (a Scholastic book animated version of Wheels on the Bus) on repeat no less than 7 times. By the time his eyes got droopy and he started to yawn, we were tangled up in each other in a really warm cuddle.

An hour earlier, I would have scoffed at the notion that I was going to be sad to put him to bed, but amazingly, that hour of cuddle time was exactly what I needed to rekindle that spark of disappointment I feel every time I have to say good night to him.

4 comments:

sueJune 21, 2010 at 11:48 PM
i love how your posts can make me simultaneously laugh, cry and feel so much love for my own child! it almost makes me want to go wake C up, right now. almost. but, i won't because i can't go anywhere near that crazy train in the middle of the night!!
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JoJoJune 22, 2010 at 6:42 AM
I'm so glad that worked! 1 hour of great weighs much more than a few hours of not-so-great.
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KrisJune 22, 2010 at 8:23 AM
You are hilarious! The padded room comment cracked me up. I'm glad the night turned out to be a sweet moment between you and Little Bug.
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Christine @ 12,450miles June 22, 2010 at 10:26 AM
I think I can learn a few very important lessons from this post...
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I'm a 32-year-old everyday mama. My husband (Appa) and I adopted our first son Little Bug (at 10 months old) from Korea in September 2008. We adopted our second son, Little Bro, from Korea in April 2011 at age 21 months. We adopted our third son,Little Moon, at age 3 in November 2013. I've wanted to be a mama for a long time, but I'm still trying to figure out the reality of it all and take time to enjoy the delicate beauty of the highs and the lows.

I worked full time as an editor, which I loved; but I made the bittersweet decision to stay home with my children after Little Bro came home. I'm now clumsily finding my footing in a new world of housekeeping, menu planning, budgeting, cooking, cleaning, and rainy-day activities, as well as navigating the world of IEPs, parent advocacy, and special needs education (spoiler: I suck at house work). My husband is hot and smart and quiet and loyal, and I think (know) my sons are the cutest, happiest little boys in the world.

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