Whisper

I have a family blog I update regularly. It's primarily for our family who live out of state and to journal our lives. Because of that, I sometimes censor what I write there just a touch to keep expectations of those who read it manageable. Sometimes it's hard to explain to people not going through an adoption just how fluid and not concrete legitimate, concrete information is--especially in a blog post. So, we keep things like our number on the wait list vague and covered with caveats.

But I have to get it out.......

"Worst case scenario is 6."

That's the official word I got from my social worker today. If all the families ahead of us are paper ready, then we are number 6 on the waiting list. If they are not...........

Our agency was blown away by 4 referrals this month. They are telling us they anticipate our number coming up in March or April...conservatively. I've been so incredibly good this time around with managing my expectations for referral and travel, and I anticipate some things will not be as smooth as they were with Little Bug's paperwork. I've been telling myself it could be months and months and months away, but today it became more real.

Little Bro is most likely not months and months and months away.

And I just had to write it down somewhere to prove it to myself.